You know why the caterpillar wraps itself in silk while it changes into a butterfly? So no one can hear it screaming. That is because change is hard! Which is why most people don’t have the courage to do it, and second guess themselves when they do.
The first deep breath of 2014
Many people out there in the world will be sitting down and looking back over the year. Talking about the good and the bad. We’ll look back on experiences and we’ll reminisce on what WAS as we begin to turn towards what IS. Before beginning this post I took that slow deep breath knowing that I too have spent the last few days thinking about all that WAS 2013 as I turn towards all that IS for 2014. There is something refreshing about going to sleep on the last day of the old year and waking up on the first day of the new year. A feeling of “oh this year is going to be different” overwhelms our being. We brush off the dust that has been collecting on our spirits and proclaim “BRING IT” with such ferocity that we just KNOW this is OUR year!
I took that deep breath before typing in the first word of this blog post. I rested my fingers over the keyboard. The word in my mind. Waiting to be released. And yet, I find it hard to share. Like a keepsake that you cherish, you’re afraid to share in case someone uses your story against you. The changes that I have encountered the past few months were tough. The people who I cared for and thought I was close to were the ones that hurt me the most. I guess it was tough because I never expected it. I was taught to trust people by their actions and not their words. In my circumstances I did just that. So at times in my case, words meant more than actions. I took another long deep breath before laying my hands across the keyboard again. I know some big changes are coming based on my experiences. The word is BIG and all of the actions behind that word might seem small to anyone peeking in on my itty bitty corner of LIFE. But for me each and every (small) step is actually a big leap forward. I woke up this morning, just as the darkness of night was turning to the light of day. I can feel that the next 12 months are going to be something short of amazing for me. I've spent that last days of 2013 unzipping the burdens of what WAS and enveloping myself in what IS. My determination is my inspiration to make the rest of my life, the best of my life.